no more swimming under the sea...

i've changed back to my old blog's template since lately i haven't been seeing the picture used for the borrowed template, swim with me under the sea... it looks better now that it's simpler... less complicated. i hope i would feel ok with this for long so that i wouldn't have to find a replacement this soon.

'til next. :-)

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discussion on love...

... is turning out to be a debate!

no... not really a debate... 'tis just something we had some heated arguments on a few minutes, hours, moments ago. 'twas interesting, though...

it's our group's third change of topic... our topic now is something like love in the modern sense, or love then and now... 'tis so just to have an argument, something we could reall talk about, something "intellectually stimulating." we came to these points that would serve as the outline, the supporting ones that makes up the main topic: courtship, technology, conservatism, respect, same sex relationships, context, limits, commitment, and sex. let me remind myself what we should be dealing with given these subs... courtship. courtship then was way harder than courtship now. courtship now is much simpler than that of the past. technology. it is one thing that affects the changes in our views on courtship and the like. conservatism. some people are still conservative; some are now much more liberal... (changes in time bring about these differences in views & opinions.) because of conservatism, some still think sacred of traditions. because of liberalism, i'm most likely to repel traditions, traditionalism. respect and values. values yesterday differ from those of today. self-respect implies to others that the self (or he) should be respected by them... respect begets respect > respect them and they'll respect you... show them that you respect yourself then they'll respect you too... the discussion goes on like that... same sex relationships. i'm against that, for God made woman for man and man for woman... i can tolerate them as long as they're not taken seriously, like that's a matter of life and death. i'm not against homosexuals, bisexuals, and the like, though. context. context of love back then and how it differs now... all i can say is that...love does not change as time goes by. it's the people that change, the culture, the technology, the ways of expressing love!... that should go to the conclusion though... it's not something that should be revealed early in the discussion... it's actually the conclusion! Ü limits. it's said that love conquers all. (yuck! corny!) but in spite of my belief in that, too, i certainly think there are limits to it, especially if it's love by man, then it couldn't possibly be agape or unconditional as God's love. a man can kill but he shouldn't name love as the reason for committing murder. commitment. views on commitment, especially life-long commitments, had changed... life-long commitments are no longer just togetherness... people think harder now before moving to such level, a higher level of intimacy... most no longer think of marriage as something that could be equated with dowry... sex. i still think it's sacred, and that it's still important for a couple to be both virgins as they face each other in the altar. otherwise, well, that's ok, but it's not the best marriage for me... i don't know really... am i in the right position to speak?!?

now that i've laid out some of my views, i gotta clarify that the reader should consider the culture in the country i live in. i'm from the Philippines. i'm a Filipina. (but not the typical Internet Filipina! you people with dirty minds!! how judgmental of you!!!) i'm proud to be one & i'm proud to tell you that i'm not a traditionalist & i'm liberal to some extent. if you study or live in the Philippines or immerse in Filipino communities, you would much better understand how and why i've gained or made these thoughts of mine.

it's your time to shine. XP XD
(btw, i like you, doitz!!! doitz, be mine!!! rather... be a good friend of mine. Ü)

almost red... not blue!!! but blue... (labo!!!)

btw, the title of my last post is almost red... i was near enjoying every minute of Valentinte's day... so... there. but in the true color test i've taken recently, it says there that i'm brown... that's stilll true enough. i got a different result today though 'cause i altered some of my answers to second choice answers if those some weren't in the choices or if i were in a different mood (specifically, yesterday's mood)... the result:

Yin, your true color is Blue!

You're blue — the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you — they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue — and patently you!

but i still think i'm brown... remember?... brown?... myriad of colors... right?

why do i get this feeling that lately i'm uncertain about all things i say?... like, i have to ask you "right?" or "remember?" i'm getting sick of me!!!

gotta go... gotta change.
for the better. -_-

almost red

yesterday, Valentine's day, i had the chance to talk to my crush, but then... well, i just don't know what to do whenever he's near! i mean... i'm a jelly. yah. that's it. torpe, kumbaga. no exaggeration ha... pero kung kelan in-e-expect kong medyo walanghiya ako, doon ako nawalan ng loob, partly siguro dahil napaligiran s'ya ng ibang mga dilag na kumausap sa kanya bago ako mag-initiate dapat ng conversation... pag-ibig nga naman o... pag-ibig nga ba?...
but because of Reg's actions, tinging ko obvious na 'ko... kulang na lang talaga sabihin ko sa kanya paglapit ko, "alam mo ba, crush kita?" ewan ko lang kung ano magiging reaksyon nun, ewan din kung mag-f-feeling in hell or confused (whatever) kami after (kung gagawin ko man), at ewan ko lang din kung ako lang ang magiging awkward ang feeling... ewan lang talaga. hanggang ewan na lang ba 'ko? pero, alanganerz namang gawin ko nga 'yun 'di ba? baka mag-suicide pa 'ko kung sakaling nagawa ko nga 'yun at nainis ako sa sarili ko dahil na-violate ko ang sarili kong prinsipyong dapat lalaki ang mauuna sa pagsabi ng nadadama... ('yan ang siguradong hindi ewan ang sagot... sigurado lang naman akong hindi mangyayari 'yan. bwahahahaha!!!) going back... hindi naman kaya pare-pareho lang ang lahat ng mga lalaki?... i mean, hindi kaya kapag bigla akong umamin e mag-feeling na siya? (tulad ng karamihan ng mga lalaki?...) how would i know if i do not try?... pero, why would i try nga?!? hmm... dito pa lang confused na 'ko, hindi ko na malaman if i should still push through & if i should let him know how i feel... hindi ko naman sasabihing i love him e!!! no big deal dapat, 'di ba, kapag sinabi kong i like him? 'di ba?...... haaay... buhay nga naman, oo... parang life! -_-
siguro ang dapat ko na lang problemahin ngayon ay kung paano sisimulan ang usapan na parang ako si Reg, cool lang, parang normal lang, parang 'friendships!', carefree... paano magsisimula, ano ang pag-uusapan, paano ang flow, at paanong hindi mag-sh-shudder & stutter!!! or, better yet, problemahin ko na lang kaya kung paano tatapusin 'yung mga requirements para sa skul?!? *blag*
i'm going... i should.
belated happy Valentine's day! (hey, you oughta treasure this greeting 'cause it's aging slowly...fossilizing!!! nyek!... corny... ever!!! tsk tsk.) ok, gotta get moving... really.

oh, these hearts of ours...

The following is an entry dated 10/17/05... i wasn't able to post it. i wasn't even able to finish it. Here goes:

title: brown, i find, is a myriad of colors. i am brown...
based on what i've been seeing (or based on what i have been doing) lately, it is evident that brown becomes the prominent (if not the only) color after a (successful?) mix of chalk dust or oil pastel particles. i am now into thinking that such proofs are a reflection of what i am feeling now. i'm afraid, excited, in love (interrobangs), frustrated, worried... have i mentioned Worried? and afraid? i hate to admit it, but i'm afraid... i'm so afraid that i can't even tell what i'm afraid of, so afraid that i'm afraid to speak up! confusing, hm?... i am wishing at this very moment that i were colorblind... (though i know that it's just the spur of the moment... i don't mean this!)

that was it. and Tickle seems to agree... i'm basing that statement on the result I got from one of its tests which a friend (Sherwin!) forwarded. Result:

Yin, your true color is Brown!

You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

i'm ok with that.


today, February 2, is another "memorable day," as what Reg would call it... Yesterday was one, and today is... well, the next memorable day to The memorable day. (***blinking W*** one of the things we've made up in class... it's a BeS thing. ^^) it's nothing serious... just something related to... umm... love life?!?... not so much about that, but something about crushes, sightseeing, & the like... those that we girls love doing! lately, (I mean, this Feb, at least... but we're only at the mouth of Feb!... oh, well...) we've been seeing our dear prospects and as much as I would like to say that I hate mentioning these sorts of thingies, well... I'm getting to love this Feb! not quite though since there is also a "problem" (or problemS...) we have to face... I can't mention names... but, oh! to keep this "conversation" light, I'll be making kwento (yuck! Taglish!) again about my crush, him, the present. well, I can't tell much since I'm afraid he might easily find out about this or somebody else would. (isn't that enough a clue?) he's not so the "pretty boy" type, but he's... ok. i mean, with the length of time that we've been together, I couldn't really say he's not likeable... the problem is... [i suppose that--] many have a crush on him.

ok, that's enough. i've been giving out too much info. however little you think those might be, well... I still think I've said enough!

'til next!
(sorry sa pabitin. and, oh!, Happy Valentine's Month! i'm with Bea nga pala, sa lib......)
:-)