revelations & responsibilities

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i was supposed to post this one last March 12. here goes...


title: revelations & responsibilities

today, i did something horrible... i revealed to my BES classmates that i joined a beauty-&-brains contest 3 years and some months ago! i shouldn't have told them about that... tsk tsk tsk...
end of revelations part. i do not want to say more about that...
responsibilities. i do not know if i could handle them. it's not that i cannot; it's just that


"it's just that"...
i wasn't sure then (& i still am) that i'd be able to continue my studies in the university... who knows, i might not be lucky enough this time... i think i'm in the list of those facing the possibility of being... debarred. ^^ yep, that's right. last year, my clearance said, i'm on probation. days after receiving my clearance, i enrolled for summer classes for 2 subjects & was able to pass... the one which was indicated to have the mark of "inc" though wasn't cleared yet... & i think my prof already failed me. if she really did, it would be for the good of both of us... there's a long story behind it that's why i dare say that. (i shall say though that i love her! she's a nice teacher.) i got another deficiency last sem (1st sem) & it's another "inc". that means i now have two deficiencies, both of 3 units. for those in their 2nd year & up here in the university i'm in, we may only have 6 units of deficiencies. lest we maintain that or decrease the numbers, we would be facing debarment. going back to where I first took off, ikinakatakot ko nga lang na baka nandun na 'ko sa spot, biglang wala pala silang maaasahan.
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i don't remember when i had this last edited. whenever that was, i'm sure of one thing today: i'm happy! happy because i'm not yet debarred. i got another failing grade, but this time sa minor, sa NSTP... 3 units ng lab... that did not make me on probationary status or debarred though... good thing. another good thing is... UNO AKO SA MAJOR SUBJECT!!! ang yabang ko, pero imagine that! maybe being in a front seat does make a difference... matataas ang grades ko (dalawa lang ang below 2.00... lahat 1.75 & up na) & i'm thinking i'm really lucky... God is good, God is great! i'm thankful! sobrang saya ng April, ng summer ko, ng buhay!!! at may isa pang ikasasaya... nagkalinawan kami ng sinasabi nila dating boyfriend ko daw. at least, ngayon, kahit para kaming nagpadala lang sa conclusion nila (crowd, classmates, batchmates, hearsay-ers, feeling controllers of our lives... no, i'm not holding grudge, talaga), i know na may decision din kaming nagawa NANG KAMI LANG. magandang magkalinawan.

i'm single & happy! never better! :-)

from brown (to blue) to red

Your true color is Red!


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Yin, your true color is Red!

Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

Red?!? what red?!? ok, so maybe i only get really satisfied when my heart is really really into something, but then... hey, at times i do think before i act! or... maybe red is the artist in me... as if.